Silent

Look at you is an obsession. Too bad it can only be an obsession in a silent way. Cause i am no one in the eyes of yours. But you're everything in mine. If only you're mine living the life of something we never thought we could have. Because loving someone who is almost impossible for you to have is just sick. But it doesn't matter cause seeing you happy with someone else is good enough for me. Good enough to actually draw a smile on my not so pretty face. Even when i know the life of yours won't be part of mine. Even when i know you gonna grow old with someone else. Even when I know my heart break a little bit more every day. I will still smile to show that i am happy for you. I'll find someone else. Hopefully i will find someone else. Someone who can actually take your place. But i don't think it will happen. I don't think someone can actually be better than you because you're just way too special and way too perfect with that flaws you have. And I am just in love with your perfect imperfection.

Believers but not believe

I live in the society where they believe everything that their ancestors did without making an effort to search for the truth the real truth. They said i'm liberal. But the truth is i am not. I stand with my own thoughts of things. I am firm with things i believe that are true and it is all based from the research that had been done. Yes i am not a religious type of person. Well that's what they call me. But at least i tried to find the truth. How can we believe something that can actually ruin ourselves. My family and i, we are slightly different. No i mean we are very different. We are not like them. I believe in my religion. And i am sure others too. But are you sure that what you believe is the truth. How can we be so sure? That is why god ask us to find the truth not to follow the truth. How can we tell that the things we followed for ages are the truth? How can we actually trust someone somebody that didn't live in the years of history to make the histories. I know what i am writing right now are not clear. What i actually believe is not stated. But believe me if you make some more research about your religion you'll actually find the truth that might blown your mind.